Though it was a planned pregnancy, it came on so quickly I'm still having a hard time believing any of this is real. Lyle, my handsome and wonderful boyfriend, and I have told our parents and siblings, who are a mix of shocked, excited and worried. We are waiting until after my first prenatal appointment in February to tell the rest of our friends and family. We'll see if we can wait that long.
Lyle is beyond excited. His mom said that he already had those daddy eyes, bright and glowing. I think I just look stunned. I still am stunned. I'm worried that I'm not ready, that I'm too young (only 21!), that I won't be a good mom, that I won't even realize I'm a mom--but, really, I'm worried that something will go wrong and all this excitement I've been hiding will be for nothing. I wish and hope and pray that everything goes right. I will take all the bloatedness, cramps, food cravings, and even my teeth falling out if it means this baby comes happy and healthy!
So, here is my little blog, some place to rest my thoughts, be part of a community and figure what kind of family we will be. I have so many advantages: both sides of the family within a half-hour drive or less, aunts and uncles near and far willing to drive, I'm very healthy despite my lack of exercise and weakness for all things sugar, and a man who loves me and loves this little thing we've created. Sometimes I forget just how lucky I am.
Now, resolutions:
- Send something off for publication--hopefully a book or short story collection by the end of the year
- Read at least 100 books (did I mention I'm insane?)
- Start going for walks on nice days--take advantage of an unreasonably warm winter in Canada!
- Keep this blog updated, hoping people will eventually read it
- Be happy and remember to love all my friends and family
- Kim
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